I have not cried in such a long long time. The cigarettes must've somehow been the real anti-depressants, or stress-faders.. I didn't shed a single tear when I was on cigarettes the past month.. When I look back over the month, and at the first 2 months of the past 4 months (i think), everything seemed to be in it's right place. Yes, right place. But now when I look back over the things I've done, the words I say, I think, "That was way better than those months I'm talking about.."
I happened to watch a little video that my cousin sent to me, another video which Tammi once gave to me, a picture Bah sent to me and another video which Ezal once gave to me.. I'm probably an amateur stuntman.. A solo in the middle of a song that was uncalled for, dragging a cymbal out into the front and fucking around with it, a small speech about a small pedal problem, looking all gay being all red (but that was cool!), singing probably the most lovey-dovey song ever written, slapping my best friend across the face and singing *ahem* ... well we all thank Jay & The Americans for writing that beautiful song, and I thank the Dodo Girl for lending me the cd..
90% of the stunts were done for reasons I won't say here. 10% was done just for the hell of it. I miss pulling stunts, I'm going to pull stunts soon.. If you're not holding on (and I'm referring to just someone), I think that you'd better ;)
Joel's studio is cool.. the main office looks like my uncle's house.. the amps are to die for.. Joel's temper is something you should never learn from.. haha! Hell, middle fingers, walloping, exchanging of those rather beautiful words..
Archives of our lives.. sigh.. I'm just waiting for the day to come where I'll just give a small laugh, heave a small sigh of relief and tell myself, "Heh.. what was I thinking?"
Stunts. Enjoy your Sundays.
P.S.
Come to Fish & Co. on Thursday.. I'm playing half of 2 sets alone.. sharing the sets with my pal Rifai.. Must thank Rifai for giving the opporunity! I might be playing your favourite tunes, who knows? Haha.. Come down yeah? Food is on me..
Yarrite.. hehe