I love and hate working at fish and co. There are many reasons. I am very confused. I don't know which one I lean more toward to; the love or hate. I hate the place because I always get fucked about my guitar playing. I wonder where I am going wrong. There is not a day that goes by that I do not get fucked by this problem. It's been a big bother. It's nothing personal, at least I hope so, and it's always best to take these things positively.
The love part.. my gosh, the love part also has it's love and hates. So it gets even more confusing. I don't even need to ask, all I have to do is sit at the bar and something good comes up. The bad thing is when something good stays for too long and admits too many truths in one moment. I've not been speaking about this openly because it has been rather embarassing! I know now the real meaning of 'melatar'. Or at least I think that's how you spell.
Fadil was there to witness this embarassment I keep facing. I faced a good one once before, and I'm sure as hell not ready to face anymore, at least for now. I wish I never was the person I am. I wish I could just stop wishing!
Anyway I was forced to miss my course chalet's bbq. Hear good things about Arif's satay. Could go there and get a chance to prove certain friends that I ACTUALLY CAN avoid temptation. But what's to prove when you're seen in a bad light? Ah.. life goes on, nobody's stopping, and even if someone did, I wouldn't care anyway..
So after an awful night at work, went recording with Fadil at MusicZone. Old friend of mine, Nizam was there to record the music for us. We did the Youthwreck song 'Down'. I love the way the drums sound. Really do. Hope further mixing will further enhance the product. Er.. what?
Anyway, I'm beginning to think that power is nothing without control. And control is something you don't get everyday. I have no control. I have no hand. But fuck you, we'll see who finishes the race.
Remember that. You may be way older than me and you may put a good impression on people. But watch what you say and do behind my back. Watch your purpose.
Just watch out.