It's now 2 months. It's been EVEN GREATER!! IT'S GONNA BE GREATER!! I LOVE YOU!!
anyway..
I've been thinking until now... that playing streetfest... is a TOTAL WASTE OF TIME!
Cuz.. I was thinking about Page playing it and then I thought.. paying THEM so that WE could play a gig? No fucking way. I'm not keeping THAT in our resume.. Even if I had money and lots to spare, I wouldn't pay for Page to play. It's ridiculous la. It's damn embarassing. Paying to play. Purgh.
I don't call the shots for youthwreck, so I guess it's okay la. But now money damn tight. Shit! So that means I cannot wait to be accepted into DXO and humbly play 3 nights a week. Shiok! Better than FISH & CO!
Back to streetfest.. it don't really matter where i play, I've come to a decision where I think streetfest is lame shit. Lame sound, lame settings. Bleargh. LAME! I want street lamposts behind us/around on the stage, so it acts like the stage lighting. Maybe some rain dripping. So we could take a small shower because we sweat alot.
Streetfest don't have that. But that's ridiculous what i'm asking out of them. Cuz they're lame. But for exposure... hmmm.. okay la, why not?
BUT NO MORE OF THIS SHIT! I'VE HAD ENOUGH TO TAKE ABOUT PLAYING SHITTY GIGS AND GETTING SHITTY MONEY!
From now I shall ask more about the gig. Like technical stuff. Or where it's gonna be at. Or whatever thats important in playing a good show. No more bad rep. That's shit. I give a full ass! 2 buns! No more half assed shows. I'm sick of that shit. I'll get sick of myself if I go on like that.
I must learn to love myself. Thanks, baby.
And to those of you who think that I'm turning shit after saying all this, pls re-think.
Ok ah, grunge is grunge, but grunge is NOT paying to PLAY gigs! I'm always thinking of Page and THAT would be a huge disrespect to my bandmates. I've been through (not alot yeah, but enough's enough!) some of these gigs.. they're probably all streetfest la i think.. and FUCK IT, IT SUCKS!
I believe in playing music makes me live. Keyword, LIVE! Life is good, live it good. Eat your food, pay your bills, love your girlfriend (btw i've been WIFED!), play your music! Rmbr to not pay to play gigs. Pay for recording.
Anyway.. signing off, I love Jolene.